OK - let me start by saying I'm in a bizarre mood. Sort of surreal reflection - like if Dada met Bruce Lee for lunch at the local Souper Salad to the soundtrack of Werewolves of London by Warren Zevon...
"you'd better stay away from him! He'll rip your lungs out, Jim! UUH! I'd like to meet his tailor..."
I've been pondering and praying about faith tonight. Faith in God and faith in others. What it is and isn't. I know of the word, but have yet to capture it. I have a bit, but it can be a love/hate relationship.
I know what I WANT faith to be - a hook to hang my hat on...a formula to fix my problems...a promise to calm my fears...a magic wand to make my life turn out like I want it to.
But anyone familiar with faith for more than just a little while soon realized that Faith has a mind of its own. More often than not, the good guy doesn't win. Sometimes the ship never comes in. And always - 100% of the time, we are disappointed by faith. Even God disappoints us - selfish beings that we are. Justified or not, faith always lets us down.
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By its very nature, faith is unKNOWable. If we are able to truly, firmly KNOW something (in the scientific sense - with proof and whatnot), then no faith is required. So faith is believing that -which by definition - cannot be known. It's belief in what we can't see or hear or taste or smell or grasp.
So faith cannot be quantified nor does it have a very good track records sometimes. So to have faith and keep faith requires that we do so IN SPITE OF everything we know. It's not just a belief in what we CAN'T see, but a decision to believe against what we CAN see.
The "Christian faith" is a tricky thing. There are many faiths that believers wrestle with - faith in a Creator that cares about us, faith in an unbelievable story about God becoming man and settling a supernatural debt, faith in an ancient book, faith in the institution of the Church through the ages, faith in the elders that have preserved the faith.
Maybe the best argument for faith is this - what's the alternative? Without faith, everything is meaningless. Why get up tomorrow? Without faith, I mean nothing - just a little piece of matter that happened to get zapped with enough electricity to roll around the cosmos for a micro-infinitesimal blip in eternal nothingness. Without faith, I'm lint in a giant dryer - clinging on to the underwear called earth.
[It's OK to roll your eyes at that last line. Bruce and Dada just did. And hey - it's that Leo Sayer manning the cash register?]
Anyone who understands the scientific method understands that this would never be and acceptable argument for real research. But for philosophy, it's pretty persuasive. I can't get around it. It hits me square in the forehead anytime I'm tempted to throw the towel in. Justified or not, faith always lifts us up.
So what do you think? What is faith to you? What is it not? What's your favorite Warren Zevon song? What is the meaning of the universe? What's the square root of pie? (I think it's crust....mmmmm)